My Goal

My goal is to find a college that has a major in Diagnostic Medical Sonography. I want to be a Ultrasound Technician. To be an ultrasound technician I need to find schools in that field, and so far I found two schools. I found Sanford - Brown and New York Methodist Hospital. They are both in New York City and I am going to try to get into them by September.

I don't know if this is what I want to do in life. I don't even know if this is what I want to do with my life. I don't know if I should stay as a Fine Arts student or not. My parents tell me that I should stay as a Fine Arts student. They tell me that I shouldn't waste the talent that I have. I do feel proud of myself by being in the honors art program in High School and by the end of the year I have gotten a certificate and a medial for Fine Arts. The only problem is that I just don't feel like I use to be about drawing or painting. This is the reason why I have been thinking about going into the medical field. If I did end up in the medical field I wouldn't have to worry about having financial problems. As an artist it's hard to find a good job and money as an artist can be iffy.

I feel like the only reason I would continue with being a Fine Arts student is because of my parents and my High School art teachers. I just don't want to disappoint anyone, I would just like for me to be happy for what I want. I feel a lot of pressure and stress because I am very lost and confused about what I want to do with my life. One of the most things that I am really worried about is money problems. As I get ready to start my career, I want to know that I will be okay. I don't want to be living with my parents still and I just don't want to be working in a unhappy environment. I want to feel useful in my life and I want to make a difference in my life. I want my parents to look at me and say, "That's my daughter and were proud of her." When it comes to me, I just want to live as an independent person. I don't like turning to other people for money, especially my parents.

The challenges that I am facing now and that I will face in the future seems very emotional to me. I feel scared and alone. My mom didn't have to go to school for her career, it was basically handed to her, so when she comes to me she acts like its just like high school. College is nothing like high school and so far in school I am very stressed out. I feel pressured because I am the first granddaughter to go to college. I am stressed out because I don't have a job right now, and my mom stresses me out even more because of that. Right now my time in college is good, but I am stressed out because of what I am going through. Other challenges are things like do I want to go out of New York or do I want to stay in New York. If I move out of New York, will my financial aid pay for it all or not? I am also scared of the world.

The only way I will know if I want to be an Ultrasound Technician is by trying it out. I need to find a school in New York, apply for it and see if I can get accepted. If I do get accepted I will feel very proud of myself. I want to do this for myself because I think it is a cool thing to get into. Letting women see there unborn child. I think it brings emotions and a great feeling to people. I don't want to be a doctor because blood freaks me out and so does cuts and wounds. That's why I thought about being an Ultrasound Technician. I know it wont be an easy road getting there for me, I know it will be highly emotional for me. I guess I can't let the world scare me and just keep moving forward.